A7X - Until The End

Weekends on young and angry streets,
We meet, drink till trouble found us there,
living life as without a care.
We've had our fights, been black and blue,
It's true, even gone to jail for you my friend.
Bet your life that I'd do it again.
(until the end)

Don't Change the way you think of me,
we're from the same story.
Life moves on, can't stay the same.
But for some of us, I'm worried.

While some have gone their separate ways,
there's some still caught up with the past instead
but move on. Your missing most of your life.
They say it's hard to stay the same,
when some fail, and others seem to gain,
but friend. I'll be with you here until the end.
(until the end)

Don't Change the way you think of me,
we're from the same story.
Life moves on, can't stay the same.
But for some of us, I'm worried.
We're all falling forward,
with no sign of slow.
And some moving faster,
But that's all that I wanted, I wanted.

You know it's hard
It's passing by
Memories
Be out all night
To reminisce wont bring you back
Just look ahead and hold on tight
We're all falling forward
With no signs of slow
And some moving faster
That's all that I wanted, I wanted.

Don't change the way you think of me
Oh yeah

Oh yeah
Until the end
Until the end
Until the end

A7X - The Fight

The problem with society’s been how do we teach
And if they’ll believe.
We’ll fight this battle for years to come
'til we only accept that we can stand on our own.

Grandfather used his hands, he worked them to the bone.
provide his family with a happy home, alone.

Don’t take your aggression out on me.
My own man is all I’m meant to be.
This common place is so lazy old and tired
All your ideas are so fake both non-inspired.
Takes more than one idea
More than one person to fight the fight
How many times have you taught and not conspired?

Don’t wanna be, they never say
But don’t call us the liars.


We’ve walked these alleys a thousand times
And scattered around a thousand lies.
They are trying to hold you down
Your life may be hard, but keep your feet on the ground.
Why don’t I have the finer, things that others have?
The chance is there if you want it all that bad.
So bad.

Don’t take your aggression out on me.
My own man is all I’m meant to be.
This common place is so lazy old and tired
All your ideas are so fake both non-inspired.
Takes more than one idea
More than one person to fight the fight
How many times have you taught and not conspired?

Don’t try and get me confused.
Cause I do understand.
And sometimes people need help.
That they may need a hand
when this problems going on.
A thing you have to get straight
Is that you don’t own my hand.
And I don’t owe you a thing.
So don’t think about how sorry
you feel when now your treated so bad.

This common place is so lazy old and tired
All your ideas are so fake, both uninspired.
Takes more than one idea,
more than one person to fight the fight.
How many times have you taught and not conspired?

And as a race we look back and we’ve come so far.
While some may conquer,
the others had it so hard.
But instead we just complain
while there’s no one for us to fight.
I guess we’re born and its how we keep our side to pay.

A7X - Tension

I wake up every morning, bright and early
Roll out of bed but I'm never quite alone
Tension is pulling me in all directions
And all these problems you use me as a rope
Sometimes the pressure will just drive you crazy
At any time I could explode
I need some piece of mind, it's got me tired
Don't wanna lose it, but I'm turning down that road

I need a moment 'cause I've spread myself too thin
We all need a moment in our lives
Work's hard, the day's too long
And that's just where it begins
Tension has had us all this time

I sit in traffic every single morning
Just as I arrive, I'm slaving to the grind
Making the money so I feed my family
But I can't raise them, 'cause I ain't got the time
I got no free days on my busy schedule
I turn the page and it's the same
Don't like my situation, you don't either
Don't wanna look back scared, I'm working life away

I need a moment 'cause I've spread myself too thin
We all need a moment in our lives
Works' hard, the day's too long
And that's just where it begins
Tension has had us all this time

But every now and then
I drive alone
An open road
Hot summer days
A gentle breeze that feels alright
On the road
And I can't feel the pain
Only strain
Enjoy the sights
I feel alive
Relaxing here just feels alright
Far from home

I need a moment 'cause I've spread myself too thin
We all need a moment in our lives
Work's hard, the day's too long
And that's just where it begins
Tension has had us all this time

A7X - Girl I Know

Let me tell you 'bout a girl I know
That comes alive when you take off her clothes
There's no telling just where she's been
Ask around but no one seems to know

Late at night when your looking to sin
Call her up and she'll lay down the law
You can't trust her 'cause she'll lie to your face
But that's not why you gave her a call

Awaits deep inside
The lust and burning desire

We've all been more than eager to sin
And it feels alright, 'till we pay the price
Now you choose either naughty or nice
'Cause she's here for you
It's all yours tonight
You won't believe the stories I've been told
About the girl I know

Another thing about this girl I know
She's more comfortable down on her knees
Went to school, got a job, and then she shot into hell
All 'cause she's born to please

Don't get her mixed up 'cause she knows what she likes
Can tell the difference between right and wrong
She knows you're watching every one of her moves
Just more reason to string you along, yeah

Awaits deep inside
The lust and burning desire

We've all been more than eager to sin
And it feels alright, 'till we pay the price
Now you choose either naughty or nice
'Cause she's here for you
It's all yours tonight
You won't believe the stories I've been told
About the girl I know

The first times hard enough
But you made it through
The seconds time I see the changes in you
She's got you somehow
You're needing her now

We've all been more than eager to sin
And it feels alright, 'till we pay the price
Now you choose either naughty or nice
'Cause she's here for you
It's all yours tonight
You won't believe the stories I've been told
About the girl I know

A7X - Demons

I've been thinking lots about my life and
How quick I'd wash it down the drain
Past tense the future, nothing matters now
I act on my own and I'm to blame
Living's a wicked dream, when things turn out all wrong.
We're all so weak, no matter how strong, yeah

I tried running away from me
Convince me that I've grown, but I can't
Change so unnaturally, Demons they follow me
I quit running away from me
Convinced that I had grown, but found out
All my reasons for insanity, all a part of me.

I don't like that you're calling me a liar
I don't like that you found out I'm a snake
Been sneaking around for far too long now.
I don't like how fast my intentions fade
Karma has beat me down,
But the worst is yet to come.
Many mistakes and still I'm so young, yeah


I tried running away from me
Convince me that I've grown, but I can't
Change so unnaturally, demons they follow me.
I quit running away from me,
Convinced that I had grown, but found out
All my reasons for insanity, all a part of me.

I can't
Count how many times
Awakened in fear, nightly
palms sweating
Dreams
Where promises are made
To no one but myself
Help him
Crushed daily

Don't lend me your hand
I can't trust my self,
So how can you trust me?

We've all made selfish, bad decisions
We've all tried dishing out the blame
Convinced ourselves of our own actions.
My problem is I'll never change
In doubt, some good comes out
I'll fold before its time.
Can't promise you that its my last time, yeah

I tried running away from me
Convince me that I've grown, but I can't
Change so unnaturally, demons they follow me
I quit running away from me
Convinced that I had grown, but found out
All my reasons for insanity, all a part of me

Truth won't help you now
All the loves gone too far

Truth won't help you now
All the loves gone too far

I'm scarred, yeah
Demons they follow me, 'cause my insanity

I'm scarred, yeah
Demons they follow me, 'cause my insanity

I'm scarred, yeah
Demons they follow me, 'cause my insanity

I'm scarred, yeah
Demons they follow me, 'cause my insanity

A7X - Dancing Dead

Dead men,
They celebrate
As the final chapter
Fades away
Cuz they can't hide;
We can see their flesh is rotten!

The band plays a hopeful tune
The champagne is poured
As they socialize
The look in their eyes
Hide in the light!

Everything is paid for tonight
While at the party of the
Dead dancin in their graves
The drinks here are free
So relax
Enjoy the sight of all the
Dead dancin in their graves
And while the world that they built
Told 'em to change
Told 'em to listen
They just kept it the same
And now that midnight has come
I'll get a room watchin the
Dead dancin in their graves

Bones covered up by suit
As the visible scars,
They multiply
Kiss it good-bye
Too stubborn and I'll destroy!

Tick, tock
The time bomb has been
Recognized and pressurized
Nowhere to hide
Swallowing light!

Everything is paid for tonight
While at the party of the
Dead dancin in their graves
The drinks here are free
So relax
Enjoy the sight of all the
Dead dancin in their graves
And while the world that they built
Told 'em to change
Told 'em to listen
They just kept it the same
And now that midnight has come
I'll get a room watchin the
Dead dancin in their graves

Feel a coming strength
And now it's too late
To change.

{background chatter}

Everything is paid for tonight
While at the party of the
Dead dancin in their graves
The drinks here are free
So relax
Enjoy the sight of all the
Dead dancin in their graves
And while the world that they built
Told 'em to change
Told 'em to listen
They just kept it the same
And now that midnight has come
I'll get a room watchin the
Dead dancin in their graves

A7X - Crossroads

I've been traveling for so long
So lost till I stumbled upon
Two roads in front of me
I had to take my time

To the right I could see a church
I took a step in that direction first
But to the left there was a watering hole
Where they were whiskey drunk
And now that's where I wanna pray
The fun down here goes on and on

If I was perfect
Then this would be easy
Either road's plausible
On both I could drown
I walk through the center
With no rules to guide me
I realize it's difficult
But now I can see

There's gotta be another way to go
A way that's much more feasible
A combination of all these lives
A central path without choosing a side

I make decisions one at a time
And no I never say I'm always right
I'm confident that when I stand on my own
You'll see the truest form of a man
When I'm shining through
So far down here, just holding on

If I was perfect
Then this would be easy
Either road's plausible
On both I could drown
I walk through the center
With no rules to guide me
I realize it's difficult
But now I can see

Oh, I hear them now
All the religious right
(You're all sinners)
(You're all sinners)
(You're all sinners)

The left isn't better
It's just more of the same
Condemning all these people
For what they believe

I climb to the top of that mountain again
No one is going to save me this way
And the closer to the top I get
The more they can gain
But I'm not you

I may not be perfect
But I've always been true
I may not be worthy in your eyes
Climb up from the bottom
For the last time
The last one the last one
The last time

If I was perfect
Then this would be easy
Either road's plausible
On both I could drown
I walk through the center
With no rules to guide me
I realize it's difficult
But now I can see, yeah.

A7X - Lost

Centuries pass and still the same
War in our blood, some things never change
Fighting for land and personal gain
better your life, justify our pain
The end is knocking
The end is knocking

We've all been lost for most of this life
(lost for most of this life)
Everywhere we turn more hatred surrounds us
And I know that most of us just ain’t right
(most of us just ain’t right)
Following the wrong steps, being led by pride

How many lives will we take
How many hearts destined to break
Nowhere to run, can't escape
Full of ourselves, tied to our fate
The end is knocking
The end is knocking, yeah

We've all been lost for most of this life
(lost for most of this life)
Everywhere we turn more hatred surrounds us
And I know that most of us just ain’t right
(most of us just ain’t right)
Following the wrong steps, being led by pride

With peace of mind so hard to find
We're dwelling on the drastic signs
Another way to numb our mind
And as you close your eyes tonight
and pray for a better life
you’ll see it flying helplessly away

We've all been lost for most of this life
(lost for most of this life)
Everywhere we turn more hatred surrounds us
And I know that most of us just ain’t right
(most of us just ain’t right)
Following the wrong steps, being led by pride

A7X - Unbound (The Wild RIde)

Somewhere life is good, and things go as they should
it's hard to find, but that’s alright yeah-ee-yeah!
Searching for the way, push harder everyday
It's deep inside, that shining light yeah-ee-yeah!
But I'm scarred, by barriers placed in my path
I'm scathed...

This ride that takes me through life
Leads me into darkness but emerges into light
No one can ever slow me down
I'll stay unbound!

Sometimes when we're young, and always on the run
It gets so dark and I know that place yeah-ee-yeah!
So don't be too concerned, you got a lot to learn
Well so do I and we've got plenty of time yeah-ee-yeah!
Don't fall off the track yet with so many races to go
Hold on

This ride that takes me through life
Leads me into darkness but emerges into light
No one can ever slow me down
I'll stay unbound!

Some live so wrong, with what we do is each his own
Living in fear, end the shame for countless years
I never lived in fear I knew I'd die another day
I never viewed my life as something... slipping away

Some live so wrong, with what we do is each his own
Living in fear, end the shame for countless years

*Choir*
I never lived in fear I knew I'd die another day
I never viewed my life as something... slipping away

*Childs Singers*
There's nothing here to take for granted
with each breath that we take
the hands of time strip youth from our bodies,
and we fade,
memories remain,
as time goes on.

There's nothing here to take for granted
with each breath that we take
the hands of time strip youth from our bodies,
and we fade,
memories remain,
as time goes on.

A7X - Gunslinger

Yeah, you've been alone
I've been gone for far too long
But with all that we've been through
After all this time I'm coming home to you

Never let it show
The pain I've grown to know
’Cause with all these things we do
It don't matter when I'm coming home to you

I reach towards the sky I've said my goodbyes
My heart's always with you now
I won't question why so many have died
My prayers have made it through yeah
’Cause with all these things we do
It don't matter when I'm coming home to you

Letters keep me warm
Helped me through the storm
But with all that we've been through
After all this time I'm coming home to you

I reach towards the sky I've said my goodbyes
My heart's always with you now
I won't question why so many have died
My prayers have made it through yeah
’Cause with all these things we do
It don't matter when I'm coming home to you

I've always been true
I've waited so long just to come hold you
I'm making it through
It's been far too long, we've proven our
love over time’s so strong, in all that we do
The stars in the night, they lend me their light
to bring me closer to heaven with you

(Bring me closer)

But with all that we've been through
After all this time I'm coming home to you

I reach towards the sky I've said my goodbyes
My heart's always with you now
I won't question why so many have died
My prayers have made it through yeah
’Cause with all these things we do
It don't matter when I'm coming home to you

And with all that we've been through
After all this time I'm coming home to you

A7X - Brompton Cocktail

(Out of time...)
Doc, I'm dyin', I'm feeling compromised (feeling compromised)
and so dehumanized (so dehumanized!)
I lost my final fight to disease, I feel that this is where it ends
I need that shot to enter my vein
My Brompton Cocktail blend

’Cause I can't feel my face
I won't struggle on
In a world so cold
In a world so wrong

I'm not running away, been fighting this so long (so long)
Such a price that we pay, we gotta be so strong
in a lie...

I'm tired, induced euphoria (induced euphoria)
to help me move along (help me move along!)
I wanna meet my maker in peace, I want to feel alive again
So put that smile back on my face and mix it strong my friend.

’Cause I can't feel my face
I won't struggle on
In a world so cold
In a world so wrong

I'm not running away, been fighting this so long (so long)
Such a price that we pay, we gotta be so strong
And I take my life tonight ’cause I have the right to die how I wanna
and leave how I arrived, so alive

I believe my sins have been forgiven
and I believe my choice will save me from this life
please don't question why
my sins have been forgotten
I believe I'll find peace in afterlife
please don't question why
I left this way

’Cause I can't feel my face
I won't struggle on
In a world so cold
In a world so wrong

I'm not running away, been fighting this so long (so long)
Such a price that we pay, we gotta be so strong
And I take my life tonight ’cause I have the right to die how I wanna
and leave how I arrived, so alive
(Alive)

A7X - Unholy Confessions

"I'll try!" she said as she walked away,
"try not to lose you."
Two vibrant hearts could change.
Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
"I'll be here waiting" tested and secure.

Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me.
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all.
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart.
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."

Nothing will last in this life
our time is spent constructing,
now you're perfecting a world... meant to sin.
Constrict your hands around me,
squeeze till I cannot breathe,
this air tastes dead inside me,
contribute to our plague.
Break all your promises,
tear down this steadfast wall,
restraints are useless here,
tasting salvation's near.

AH

Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart.
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."

AH!!

A7X - The Wicked End

Man's becoming more corrupt now, godless, wicked, and cruel
The soulless man stood silenced, Mary's word rang so true
Chastisement worse than the flood, spread the word, its all through
Don't kill the messenger girl
As if we haven't swam enough in this life of misery

Voice your prophecy, shed us some light
Fell sorrow for mankinds's chance to survive
Swallowed lies and swam in your own tears
A stab in the dark but it wounded our will
We won't be here tomorrow, hold on to me for one last time

We've grown into the number six hundred sixty six
War breaks, a sign of the end, eternally expelled
Look to the sky for knowledge, the stars align tonight
Eclipse and heaven shall fall
Now I know I've seen it all in my life of misery

Voice your prophecy, shed us some light
Fell sorrow for mankind's chance to survive
Swallowed lies and swam in your own tears
A stab in the dark but it wounded our will


Dust the apple off, savor each bite
And deep inside you know Adam was right
Lust and power, indulgence, no fear
Left with his sins, how does this end?
We won't be here tomorrow, hold on to me for one last time

As the prophets shed the light on what's to come the crowds did gather
Your time is precious, they explained, no time to worry, messiah's coming
Don't go to sleep tonight, darling, hold me in your arms
These will be our final days and I can't let go

Walls are falling, churches burning, women ravaged, children crying
Flesh is tearing, some still fighting
In this world of misery

Voice your prophecy, shed us some light
Fell sorrow for mankind's chance to survive
Swallowed lies and swam in your own tears
A stab in the dark but it wounded our will
Dust the apple off, savor each bite
And deep inside you know Adam was right
Lust and power, indulgence, no fear
Left with is sins, how does this end?
We won't be here tomorrow, hold on to me for one last time

A7X - Warmness In The Soul

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide.

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

A7X - Second Heartbeat

We keep writing, talking and planning, but everything's changing.
We all know what to do but no one does it.
Now this time has passed and full of regret.

Two in my heart have left me a while, I stand alone.
When they get back, it won't be the same.

My life, you've always been there.
Now you're gone and my head's spinning.
Left the childhood, left the memories, left the good times in the past.
Moving on your time has run out.

Wishing the clock would stand still, the world can wait.
Wasting away once again, once lived as friends.

As time passes by, regrets for the rest of my life.
The ones who I confide were gone in the black of the night.

Never will I forget you, and all the memories past.
So rarely I get to see your face.
Growing I looked to you in guidance.
We knew that time would kill us, but you're still so close to me.

To me you were my life.
To me you were my soul companion.
Now you are so far away.
Nothing can take away the times and the memories we had.

Come back - to the days when we were young
Come back - to the days when nothing mattered
To the days when nothing mattered

And I feel time passes by, regrets for the rest of my life.
The ones who I confide were gone in the black of the night.

As time passes by, regrets for the rest of my life.
The ones who I confide were gone in the black of the night.

A7X - Dear God

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

A7X - Bat Country

"He who makes a beast out of himself, gets rid of the pain of being a man"

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
I tried to drive all through the night,
the heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights.
No oasis here to see, the sand is singing deathless words to me.

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

As I adjust to my new sights the rarely tired lights will take me to new heights.
My hand is on the trigger I'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right.
Mental fiction, follow me; show me what it's like to be set free.

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today.

Sometimes I don't know why we'd rather live than die,
we look up towards the sky for answers to our lives.
We may get some solutions but most just pass us by,
don't want your absolution cause I can't make it right.
I'll make a beast out of myself, gets rid of all the pain of being a man.

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.
I've known it from the start all these good ideas will tear your brain apart.
Scared but you can follow me I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die.

A7X - Sidewinder

I slide through the wasteland that's my world
My hunger takes your life, preyed on to keep me alive, yeah
Mercy's all that you need, mercy's empty in me

Can't you feel the poison rising out of the morning
and clear through the night
You can feel my strength destroy you straight
to the heart from the venomous bite

That's right I shed my skin tonight but my fangs are hard to hide
And you know that you're going to die, yeah
Mercy's all that you need, mercy's empty to me

Can't you feel the poison rising out of the morning
and clear through the night
You can feel my strength destroy you straight
to the heart from the venomous bite

I can't regret, can't escape decisions made for me, no control
Fire that buns and never dies,
wrapped around I'll bury my fangs inside

Making my way through the night you're still in my sight
You're runnin' away cause ya know you can't hide
My instincts are cold blooded hate; to you I'm the bearer of fate
Wrong place and now the wrong time,
now terror is all that you'll find

Can't you feel the poison rising straight to the heart
from the venomous bite

Can't you feel the poison rising out of the morning
and clear through the night
You can feel my strength destroy you straight
to the heart from the venomous bite

I can't regret, can't escape decisions made for me, no control
Fire that buns and never dies,
wrapped around I'll bury my fangs inside

Stay inside tonight - you're out there all alone
Vanish from my sites - venomous control
You can't make it right - my appetite has grown
Lost your final fight - no love will be shown

A7X - Afterlife

Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you've seen
so unsure but it seems, ’cause we’ve been waiting for you
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste
of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway

I see a distant light, but girl this can't be right
Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be
Arrived too early

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong
I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far

I don't belong here, we gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here

A place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rain
Can leave this place but refrain, ’cause we've been waiting for you
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste
of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway

This peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall)
No pain or sign of time (I’m much too young to fall)
So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign
I've made up my mind

Gave me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye
Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm ready to move on and on, far away from here
Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light, and I’d hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right

Loved ones back home all crying ’cause they're already missing me
I pray by the grace of God that there's somebody listening
Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be
(I am unbroken; I’m choking on this ecstasy)
Oh Lord I'll try so hard but you gotta let go of me
(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)

*Solo*
(Screaming)
(Laughing)

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm ready to move on and on, far away from here
Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light, and I’d hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right

A7X - Critical Acclaim

Yeaahhh?

(Shh, quiet, you might piss somebody off)
Like me motherf~ker you've been at it for too long
While you feed off others insecurities
You stand in front of me and bite the hand that feeds

Self righteousness is wearing thin
(Lies inside your head your best friend)
I'll bleed but not for f e l l o w man
(Broken glass, your fake reflection)

Chorus:
Telling them its all for something real
Don't respect the words you?re speaking
Gone too far
Acclaim

So, how does it feel to know that someone's kid
in the heart of America has blood on their hands
fighting to defend your rights
so you can maintain the lifestyle
that insults his families existence
Well, where I come from we have a special salute
waved high in the air to all those
pompous assholes who spend their days pointing fingers

(F~ You!)

(Shh, quiet, you might piss somebody off)
Like the heartbeat
of this country when antagonized too long
I'll be damned if you count me
in as part of your generous hypocrisy
collected and amazed
Tabloid gossip we want less real
(There's no need for us to bury you)
Selfish agenda, once again
(Right this way, you dug your own grave)

Telling them its all for something real
Don't respect the words you're speaking
Gone too far
Acclaim

All the way from the east to the west
We've got this high society
looking down on their very foundation
Constantly reminding us that our actions
are the cause of all their problems
pointing their fingers in every direction
Blaming their own nation for who wins elections
They never contributed a f~king thing
to the country they love to critize
Excuse the obscene
Ignore the untrue
Depictions we see
Try and get through
And many mistakes can hurt
I'm not the last but I sure ain't the first

Yeaaahhh?

Self righteousness is wearing thin
(Lies inside your head your best friend)
I'll bleed but not for f e l l o w man
(Broken glass, your fake reflection)

Telling them its all for something real
Don't respect the words you?re speaking
Gone too far
Acclaim

A7X - Beast And The Harlot

This shining city built of gold, a far cry from innocence
There's more than meets the eye round here look to the waters of the deep.
A city of evil
There sat a seven-headed beast, ten horns raised from his head
Symbolic woman sits on his thrown but hatred strips her and leaves her naked.
The Beast and the Harlot

She's a dwelling place for demons, she's a cage for every unclean spirit every filthy bird
and makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.
Fallen now is Babylon the Great.

The city dressed in jewels and gold, fine linen, Myrrh and pearls
Her plagues will come all at once as her mourners watch her burn.
Destroyed in an hour
Merchants and captains of the world, sailors navigators too
Will weep and mourn this loss with her sins piled to the sky
The Beast and the Harlot.

She's a dwelling place for demons, she's a cage for every unclean spirit every filthy bird
and makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.
Fallen now is Babylon the Great.

The day has come for all us sinners, if your not a servant you'll be struck to the ground.
Flee the burning, greedy city looking back on her to see there's nothin' around.
I don't believe in fairytales and no one wants to go to Hell, but we made the wrong decision
and it's easy to see. Now if you wanna serve above or be a king below with us your
welcome to the city where your future is set forever.

A7X - M.I.A

Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun would never rise
Living another day in disguise
These feelings can't be right, lend me your courage to stand up and fight

Ohhh... tonight
Stand up and fight


The fighting rages on and on, to challenge me you must be strong.
I walk your land but don't belong, two million soldiers can't be wrong

It's no fun but I've been here before
I'm far from home and I'm fighting your war
(Not the way I pictured this, I wanted better things)
Some are scared others killing for fun, I shot a mother right in front of her son
(Take this from my consciousness and please erase my dreams)

Fight for honor, fight for your life
Pray to God that our side is right
Although we won I still may lose, until I make it home to you
I see our mothers filled with tears, grew up so fast where did those years go?
Memories won't let you cry, unless I don't return tonight

So many soldiers on the other side, I take their lives so they can't take mine
(Scared to make it out alive now, murder's all I know)
Nobody tells me all the reasons we're here, I have my weapon so there's nothing to fear
(Another day, another life, but nothing real to show for)

Fight for honor, fight for your life
Pray to god that our side is right
Although we won I still may lose, until I make it home to you
I see our mothers filled with tears, grew up so fast where did those years go?
Memories won't let you cry, unless I don't return tonight

Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun would never rise
Living another day in disguise
These feelings can't be right, lend me your courage to stand up and fight

Watching the death toll rise wondering how I'm alive
Stranger's blood on my hands, shot all I can
There were no silent nights watching your brothers all die
To destroy all their plans with no thought of me (No thought of me)
No thought of me

Ohhhh...

I Walk the city lonely, memories that haunt are passing by
A murderer walks your streets tonight
Forgive me for my crimes
Don't forget that I was so young, fought so scared
In the name of God and Country

A7X - Scream

Caught up in this madness too blind to see
Woke animal feelings in me
Took over my sense and I lost control
I'll taste your blood tonight

You know I make you wanna scream
You know I make you wanna run from me baby
but know it's too late you've wasted all your time

Relax while you're closing your eyes to me
So warm as I'm setting you free
With your arms by your side there's no struggling
Pleasure's all mine this time

You know I make you wanna scream
You know I make you wanna run from me baby
but know it's too late you've wasted all your time

Cherishing, those feelings pleasuring
Cover me, unwanted clemency
Scream till there's silence
Scream while there's life left, vanishing
Scream from the pleasure unmask your desire
perishing

We've all had a time where we've lost control
We've all had our time to grow
I'm hoping I'm wrong but I know I'm right
I'll hunt again one night

You know I make you wanna scream
You know I make you wanna run from me baby
but know it's too late you've wasted all your time

Cherishing, those feelings pleasuring
Cover me, unwanted clemency
Scream till there's silence
Scream while there's life left, vanishing
Scream from the pleasure unmask your desire
perishing

Some live repressing their instinctive feelings
Protest the way we're built don't point the blame on me

Scream, Scream, Scream the way you would
if I ravaged your body
Scream, Scream, Scream the way you would if I ravaged

your mind

Cherishing, those feelings pleasuring
Cover me, unwanted clemency
Scream till there's silence
Scream while there's life left, vanishing
Scream from the pleasure unmask your desire
perishing

A7X - Almost Easy

I feel insane
Every single time I?m asked to compromise
Cause Im afraid and stuck in my ways
And that?s the way it stays
So how long did I expect love
to outweigh ignorance
By the look on your face
I may have forced the scale to tip

Im not insane
I'm not insane
Im not insane
Im not not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me is almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again is almost easy
Shame pulses through my heart
From the things I've done to you
Its hard to face
But the fact remains that this is nothing new
I left you bound and tied with suicidal memories
Selfish beneath the skin
But deep inside I?m not insane

Im not insane
Im not insane
Im not insane
Im not not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me it?s almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it?s almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it?s almost easy
(But first you fall)
Come back again it?s almost easy


Now that I've lost you it kills me to say
(Hurts to say)
Ive tried to hold on as you've slowly slipped away
Im losing the fight
Ive treated you so wrong now let me make it right
(Make it all right)

Im not insane
Im not insane?
(Ha ha ha ha ha...)
Im not insane
Im not not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me is almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again is almost easy
(Youll learn your lesson)
Come back to me is almost easy
(Still youll fall)

Come back again is almost easy

A7X - Seize The Day

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories for us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

A7X - A Little Piece Of Heaven

Before the story begins, is it such a sin,
for me to take what's mine, until the end of time
We were more than friends, before the story ends,
And I will take what's mine, create what God would never design

Our love had been so strong for far too long,
I was weak with fear that
something would go wrong,
before the possibilities came true,
I took all possibility from you

Almost laughed myself to tears,
(ha hahahahaha)
conjuring her deepest fears
(come here you fucking bitch)

Must have stabbed her fifty fucking times,
I can't believe it,
Ripped her heart out right before her eyes,
Eyes over easy, eat it, eat it, eat it

She was never this good in bed even when she was sleeping
now she's just so perfect I've never been quite so fucking deep in
it goes on and on and on,
I can keep you looking young and preserved forever,
with a fountain to spray on your youth whenever

’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
and a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
’cause everybody's gotta die sometime,
We fell apart, let's make a new start
’cause everybody's gotta die sometime, yeah
but baby don't cry

Now possibilities I'd never considered,
are occurring the likes of which I'd never heard,
Now an angry soul comes back from beyond the grave,
to repossess a body with which I'd misbehaved

Smiling right from ear to ear
Almost laughed herself to tears

Must have stabbed him fifty fucking times
I can't believe it
Ripped his heart out right before his eyes
Eyes over easy, eat it, eat it, eat it

Now that it's done I realize the error of my ways
I must venture back to apologize from somewhere far beyond the grave

I gotta make up for what I've done
’Cause I was all up in a piece of heaven
while you burned in hell, no peace forever

’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
and a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime,
We fell apart, let's make a new start
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, yeah
But baby don't cry

I will suffer for so long
(What will you do, not long enough)
To make it up to you
(I pray to God that you do)
I'll do whatever you want me to do
(Well then I’ll grant you one chance) *
And if it's not enough
(If it’s not enough, If it’s not enough)
If it's not enough
(Not enough)
Try again
(Try again)
And again
(And again)
Over and over again

We’re coming back, coming back
We’ll live forever, live forever
Let’s have wedding, have a wedding
Let’s start the killing, start the killing

Do you take this man in death for the rest of your unnatural life?
Yes, I do
Do you take this woman in death for the rest of your unnatural life?
I do
I now pronounce you

’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
And a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime,
We fell apart, let's make a new start
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, yeah
But baby don't cry

38 Keinginan Hari Ini

Bete setelah mengetahui kalo hasil ulangan semester hari pertama remed semua (KWN ma Agama)
padahal ge bisa..
sue bet sue...

Skarang gue lagi pengen masukkin 38 lyric lagu A7X yg kren2..
Bwahaha.. Enjoy...

10 Recomennded Songs: (10 best songs in my mind now)

1. Afterlife
   
2. A Little Piece Of Heaven
3. Bat Country
4. Critical Acclaim
5. Dancing Dead
   
6. M.I.A
   
7. Second Heartbeat
8. Seize The Day
   
9. Scream
10. Until The End
    

I'm Back With Avenged Sevenfold!

Finally gue balik lagi stelah beberapa tahun gak nulis.
Gue terinspirasi dari temen-temen gue di Tangerang. Terutama Nan, gara-gara dia bikin blog, g jadi pengen ngurus blog lagi.
At least, gue balik ke Tangerang stelah bokap pindah ke Surabaya.
New life. Semua udah serba baru. Termasuk pribadi gue sekarang. I'm better than last time.
Banyak yang udah gue lalui, mulai dari kenalan ma temen-temen baru yang lama-lama deket, n skarang 2 IPA 2 udah jadi best class in my life. Oke, itu bakal gue bahas di kesempatan laen.

Sbelum m2 gw limit, gue pengen ngebahas music-influence gue akhir-akhir ini,
Avenged Sevenfold
Gue bakal bikin discographynya dari awal ampe skarang:

Sounding The Seventh Trumpet (2001)

1. The End The Rapture
2. Darkness Surrounding
3. Darkness Surrounding

4. The Art of Subconscious Illusion
5. We Come Out At Night
6. Lips Of Deceit
7. Warmness On The Soul
8. An Epic Of Time Wasted
9. Breaking TheirHold
10. Forgotten Faces
11. Thick And Thin
12. Streets
13. Shattered By Broken Dreams

Waking The Fallen (2003)

1. Waking The Fallen
2. Unholy Confessions
3. Chapter Four
4. Remenissions

5. Desecrate Through Reverence
6. Second Heartbeat
7. Radiant Eclipse
8. I Won't See You Tonight Part 1
9. I Won't See You Tonight Part 2
10. Clairvoyant Disease

11. And All Things Will End

City Of Evil (2005)

1. Beast And The Harlot

2. Bat Country
3. Trashed And Scattered
4. Seize The Day
5. Sidewinder

6. The Wicked End

7. Strength Of The World
8. Betrayed
9. M.I.A.

Avenged Sevenfold (2007)

1. Critical Acclaim
2. Almost Easy
3. Scream
4. Afterlife
5. Gunslinger

6. Unbound (The Wild Ride)
7. Brompton Cocktail

8. Lost
9. A Little Piece Of Heaven
10. Dear God

Diamonds In The Rough (2008)

1. Demons
2. Girl I Know
3. Crossroads
4. Flash of the Blade(Iron Maiden cover)
5. Until the End
6. Tension
7. Walk(Pantera cover)
8. The Fight
9. Dancing Dead
10. Almost Easy(CLA Mix)
11. Afterlife (Alternate version)

Well, Avenged Sevenfold (A7X) punya daya tarik tersendiri buat gue.

Mereka band paling berbahaya di planet ini!
Ga salah lagi!

Performance mereka di panggung nyaris sempurna. Kayak yang gue liat di Live in LBC.

Keren banget.

Tiap personil juga punya daya tarik tersendiri.


Di banyak lagu, semua anggota A7X nyanyi semua. En yang bikin beda, suara si vokalis, Mad Shadows, paling beda ndiri. Metal abis. Cool. Vokalis edan ini bahkan ngajak penontonnya yang banyak banget buat "scream" bareng-bareng. Itu aksi dia yang paling edan buat gue.

Gitarisnya juga dahsyat, dua gitaris, ga jelas siapa yang rhytym ataw yang lead, Synyster Gates
ma Zaky Vengeance slalu bikin "Melodic Duet" di tiap lagu mereka. Style mereka juga ga kalah keren bow...

Gitar mereka juga legendaris en ga sembarangan. Gitar-gitar ini yang mreka sering pake buat manggung.
Gitar Syn:

Gitar Zacky:

The Reverend alias Jimmy Sullivan, si drummer, slalu jadi inspirasi gue sekarang. Di bagian kosong, dia sering muter-muter stik gitu. Gue ga bisa sih. Sialan. Blom lagi dia backing vocal, bahkan bagian suara tinggi di band. Mampus.
Rev di panggung:










En buat drum maniacs, gue punya susunan drumsetnya Rev:















Johny Christ, si bassis, buat gue mah biasa aja. Gue cuma demen gayanya yang Punk Hair gitchu... Well,, buat gue, di tiap band gede en famous, butuh satu member yang ga gitu jago alias tumbal... En buat gue di A7X, ya bassisnya yang ga gitu skilled.Ga cuma itu, dia ga kbagian nyanyi pas ada lagu. SKalinya gue denger dia nyanyi, suaranya jelek. Bwahaha.

Okeh, skian dulu neh.
Gw takut m2 gw limit lage.
Oke. See u next time.

XA Rockin' Cultural Percussion

Doeh,
sakit juga ngetik pake jari telunjuk kapalan gara-gara maen bass..
Tadi Gia dateng ngajarin slap bass..
Keren, gue jadi nepsong blajar.
Finally gue berjam-jam di ruang band sambil nabok-nabok gitar bass gue.
Bunyinya sih ga jauh beda sama tali kolor gue yang ditarik terus dilepas lagi.
Ctar!Ctar!
Gila, susah juga nge-slap..
Kapan gue bisa jadi kayak Bondan n Bass Heroes laennya..

Hmm..
Cape juga kabur dari OBIS terus.
Tapi gue berhasil kabur lagi dari rapat OBIS.

Tuhan, moga engkau memberikanku jalan selanjutnya..
itu doa slalu gue ucapin karena gue bingung, gue pengen kabur dari kegiatan OBIS, tapi pake cara ga enak gini. Gue nyesel masuk OBIS. Shit. Wanna get out.

Well, tadi abis show di skul usai, gue langsung mabur keluar skul.
Ardika bawa motor gue, gue tunggu diluar. Gue pake jaket beda biar ga terdeteksi anak OBIS laen.

Well, agak kurang ajar..
Tapi gue pengen get out dari OBIS.. Mungkin cuma ini yang bisa gue lakuin buat yakinin pembina OBIS, (si Mbe) buat bisa keluar dari OBIS.

Well.
Hari ini ada pentas seni gitu. Kecil-kecilan lahh..
XA, klas gue, dikasih tahu dari seminggu sebelum pentas.
Well, anak-anak pun pada rapat.

Balinese Dance? BASI ABIS.

Nyanyi? Siapa yang nyanyi?

Drama? Emang ada yang mau nonton?

Striptease Dance? Jangan deh, sakit mata gue (ceile, sok suci).

Akhirnya gue ngusulin 1 ide yang bikin rekan-sesama-drummer gue, si bang-Sattwika, membuka mata, pikiran, telinga dan celana. Dia langsung kegirangan mendengar satu kata ide dari gue.


PERKUSI.


MAK.
Dia langsung bediri en tereak-tereak ga jelas. Dia setuju banget en langsung optimis ma ide ini. Dia langsung ngajakin anak-anak gila laennya, termasuk gue. Padahal,, gue aja kaga optimis sama sekali... Di otak gue, perkusi itu yang maen orang yang tangannya gesit en emang pada jago perkusi. Pesimis. Lagi-lagi gue begitu.
Tapi enggak buat rekan-rekan gue. Mereka optimis. Oke. I'll try.

Sore dibilang mau latian. Kita pun ngumpul di rumah Reza, di sebelah rumahnya ada lapangan. Jadi bisa bikin ribut.
Kita sepakat pada bawa alat-alat seadanya. Soalnya, ini perkusi emang berniat apa-adanya. Dalam bayangan gue, yang muncul adalah ember, galon, en bekas aqua botol.

Faktanya?
Gue bawa galon aqua.
Sattwika bawa botol bir.
Ada yang bawa tempat oli.
Ada yang bawa stengah lusin kaleng cet mini.
Ada kentongan maling.A
da yang ngambil lempeng seng gede banget.

Hmmm... Gue terdiam en berpikir... INI MAH BENER-BENER SEADANYA!

Well, kita pun coba bermain..
Hasilnya sangat menghebohkan, mengharukan, dan... Mencemaskan.

Anjingnya si Reza kayaknya udah teler ngedengerin gedubrak-plak-pleng-plong-treng-ting-jeger.
Selama maen en bikin rusuh, gue slalu ngeliat ke sekitar. Takut tahu-tahu ada orang berbadan kekar kayak bang Tigor yang di Suami-Suami Takut Istri trus tereak, "WOI! DIEM GAK!? GUE LEMPARIN BATU LOE YEH???!!!" En kalo itu terjadi, gue pasti udah make bang-Sattwika jadi tameng gue. Untung itu ga terjadi.

Oke. Jelas gue khawatir en mulai i-don-care lagi ma pentas ini. Gue mulai ngajuin ke orang-orang kelas buat cari pentas cadangan.. Tapi, di latian-latian berikutnya, kita mulai kompak en seru. Ada irama. Gue, Wika en yang laen-laen saling ngasih masukan. Kita mulai ngebentuk irama yang bisa bikin penonton pada head-banging.. Hwaha...

Yang cewe-cewe, pada nyanyi lagu-lagu daerah sambil joget-joget gitu. Gue juga ngasih masukan buat masukin lagi The Changcuters-I Love You Bibeh buah nambahn kesan inovatif-kreatif-selotif (lah?).

Latian pun berjalan menyenangkan walau kadang pada ogah-ogahan. Paling pada nyemok en stending-stendingin motor yang ngerusak bagian belakang motor gara-gara jemping 180 drajat. Gue kadang iseng nyoba ngisep roko temen gue,, ujungnya gue batuk-batuk berjam-jam. Hwaha...

Latian terakhirpun cuma latian 2x. Ga ada yang optimis akan hari esok buat pentas.
Finally, pagi jem 7 tadi semua udah ngumpul di humz Reza buat bawa alat-alat.Kita semua janjian pake kaos kelas yang udah mau dibikin bareng-bareng.

Gue dengan sukses melupakan perjanjian. Gue berangkat sama temen-temen yang cowo en sampe di kelas, pemandangan di kelas gue, rata-rata smua pake kaos kelas. Cuma yang ga lomba, sekitar 8 orang yang ga pake seragam kaos itu. Gue ndiri pake kaos olah-raga-biru-cerah-bloon. Finally, gue ke humz temen yang deket skula en berniat minjem baju dia karena dia ga ikut lomba. Alangkah suenya, baju dia dicuci. Yawda, gue minjem baju item dia deh biar agak mecing gitu ma yang laen.

Beberapa saat sebelum pentas smua blaga ga tau malu, bawa alat-alat-dodol ini ke belakang panggung. Wuakaka, keren dah. Malu abis.
Sebelum kita pentas, ada pertunjukan pembukaan, ada sexy dancer dari kelas 2, n modern-Balinese-dance dari kelas 2. Cukup membuat penonton bersorai. Tapi keadaan berubah pas XA dipanggil.

Dengan langkah ga-tahu-malu en dengan yel yang gue bikin, "XA GA PUNYA MALU!!! HU! HU! HUHU!", semua penonton bersorak sorai bersiap ngeliatin para penyanyi jalanan yang bawa kentongan ke sekola. Sebetulnya tadi juga udah diusir dengan alasan "PEMULUNG DILARANG MASUK" tapi berhubung cuma muka Wika yang kayak pemulung, kami diperbolehkan masuk. (hwaha)

OKe. Dengan alangkah-gatau-malunya, si ketua kelas, Fajar-Zero, mulai memainkan botol birnya sebagai tanda intro. Ting-ting-ting. Gitulah. Susah jelasinnya. Weeeii... Hebat sekali.. Kita mulai mainin lagu sesuai latian. Sayang suara-suara cewe yang nyanyi agak keganggu karena gema di aula. Sempet berhenti-berhenti karena si Fajar-Zero, sang penentu medley, sempet bingung gara-gara anak kelas 2 yang malah tereak-terak "SAURR!! SAUR!!".Pas I-love-u-bibeh, smua nyanyi. Keren banget. Gue sempet solo-fill-in en bikin suara tempat oli yang gue hajar kedengeran di seluruh aula.

Hasilnya?
TOP.
Tepok tangan terbanyak.
Hasilnya?

Juara 1.
XA menang, Atraksi Terfavorit.

Thx XA,
dengan ini, ada-lah,, kenangan di XA..
Soalnya besok udah bagi rapot en pisah kelas.
Thx yeh,, XA..
Walau gue selalu berharap ada di samping sahabat-sahabat lama gue, XA juga bikin gue PW di kelas daripada di kelas laen.
Gue yakin XA paling kompak dibanding kelas-kelas laen..
Gimana enggak, ada guenya... Bweheheh...

XA Cultural Percussion Artist

nb:liat gue kan? baju gue mecing ndiri.. hehe.. kayaknya pas dipoto, pas banget gue lagi intip cewe yang lewat. makanya mata gue ga kleatan.. ^^

OBIS (Organisasi Babu Intra Sekolah)

Lama banget ga nulis blog.sbetulnya niat udah ilang gara-gara hal-hal ga enak yang gue alami terus belakangan ini.Banyak yang udah terjadi.

Ujian udah usai, en perjuangan gue membuahkan hasil yang menyenangkan. Gue selamet dari remedial, cuma satu aja. Bahasa Bali. Bego dah,, pas ulangan, yang jaga thu si Siluman Banci Transeksual (baca:Tari Ketek Siluman Transeksual) sama satunya lagi, guru cewe (yang ini cewe beneran) yang sama kejamnya.

2-2nya ngajar seni tari yang ga ada bagus-bagusnya.Sueee... Biarpun udah di paling belakang, tetep ga bisa nyontek. Semua anak di kelas gue tahu kalo gue thu orang yang paling ga bisa bahasa Bali. Dari bulan-bulan yang gue jalanin, gue cuma taunya 'keleng' yang artinya 'anjink!' sama 'teli' yang artinya 'vagin*'. Hwahaha..

Makanya beberapa orang berbaik hati memberikan contekan walau udah dalam pengawasan 2-makhluk-seni-iblis ini.
Christian, yang duduk di depan gue berusaha mepetin kertasnya biar bisa gue baca. Oke. Pilian ganda bisa gue hadapi sekitar 20 dari 50. Dari kejauhan, temen cewe gue, Intan, ngasih tahu sekitar 10. Oke. Gue udah jawab 30 dari 50. Tau-tau pas gue liat ke meja guru,
bwaa,, si guru cewe udah melototin gue kayak ngeliat cewe bugil pake koteka. Mak. Otak gue jalan. Dengan kejadian seperti ini, gue pura-pura pinter. Berlagak mikir en konsentrasi.

Gue pun mulai mengisi.Tapi sebetulnya gue menjawab pake jurus "HURUF BERSINAR". Caranya:
1. Jauhkan lembar soal
2. Bentangkan lembar jawaban
3. Perhatikan nomor yang akan dijawab
4. Diantara option yang ada, gunakan seluruh kekuatan pikiran anda untuk membayangkan huruf yang paling 'bersinar'
(biasanya, gue ngebayangin nama-nama untuk ngejawab dengan metode ini, misal B:Bayu C:Cent)
5. Coret option yang paling 'sesuai' untuk suasana hati

Kelemahan metode ini,
-Jawabannya belum tentu benar (yaealah, ga baca soal!)
Kelebihan meode ini,
-membantu membangkitkan tenaga dalam

Dengan metode ini gue berhasil ngejawab 10 pertanyaan lagi. So, udah 40 dari 50. Gue ngejawab essay dengan 100% nyontek ke Christian. Setahu gue, cuma soal aksara Bali yang susah karena tulisannya ribet. Cuma ada 1 nomor tentang aksara Bali dari semua soal itu. Tapi gue liat jawaban Christian di lembar soal dia, semua aksara Bali. Sebetulnya dia ga nulis aksara Bali. Cuma tulisannya ancur gak kebaca. Gue lupa. Buku catetan Budi Pekerti dia aja gue kira Alquran.

Setelah selesai, berapa hari kemudian hasil dibagikan.
Yop.
4,14 untuk Bahasa Bali. Remedial menanti.

Remedial pun gue hadapi dengan tenang karena gue dapet jawaban dari temen gue di luar kelas, yang dapet soal colongannya.

Usai masalah remedi, kembali ke hati.
Hati gue belom bisa tenang stelah masalah ma 'L'. Kalo gue mati sekarang, pasti gentayangan. Mungkin gue bakal gentayangan ke rumah 'H' yang bikin hati dia kebagi buat gue. Atau gue juga bisa ke Lippo Karawaci en nyolong hape sepuasnya.Tapi kenyataannya gue masih idup. En gue ciba bertahan. Seminggu setelah gue putus, sohib gue, Bloon, putus juga. Alasannya ga jauh beda. 'P' (inisian cewenya) menyatakan ini semua akibat jarak. Well done. Jarak membunuh rasa sayang. Itu akhirnya gue mengerti.

Gue ga stuju kalo cinta itu ga harus memiliki.Menurut yang gue alamin, ga memilki ya ga dicintai. Yang kita miliki, itu yang kita cintai. Walau itu ga slalu terjadi. Kalo kita ga punya anjing, ngapan kita mencintai anjing? Kalo kita ga mempunyai sahabat, kenapa kita mencintai sahabat?

Well. Tetep aja sangenaci (something ngehe named cinta) selalu aja bikin muak pada akhirnya.
Masih tentang hati, hati gue disiksa oleh keadaan yang mengatakan bahwa gue ga boleh keluar dari OSIS. Sebetulnya gue udah males banget kerja di OSIS. Gue nyesel masuk OSIS en jadi waketos. Its all suck.Akhir-akhir ini, gue jadi kelabakan en ngumpet kalo ngeliat si ketua. Takut ditugasin atau gimana. Sebetulnya ga enak juga ma anak-anak OSIS yang laen. Tapi gue udah muak. Cape. Gara-gara OSIS, gue ga dapet nilai kesenian. Orang-orang pada pulang, gue ga boleh pulang. Orang-orang pada libur, gue sekolah.
FUCK.

Ini namanya OBIS.
ORGANISASI BABU INTRA SEKOLAH.
Gue sekolah bayar! Mahal-mahal! Uang ujian aja mahal. Ngehe. Emang bikin soal ujian susah? Setahu gue, pas bikin soal, mereka liat buku! Pas ngejawab soal baru susah! Soalnya ga boleh liat buku!Sekolah udah bayar mahal. Tapi masih bekerja mengorbankan waktu-jiwa-raga-pikiran buat sekolah. Sebetulnya semua bisa teratasi kalo temen-temennya asik. Tapi selama di OBIS, gue ga ngalamin kebahagiaan dari temen-temen OBIS. Gue pengen keluar!!
FUCKCKCKCKCK!!!

Tadi gue minta pengunduran diri dari pembina OBIS. What did she say? Dia bilang, 'ya jalanin aja dulu' 'ini kan baru awal'.. Oke, gue ga betah di OBIS. Gue pengen get out. Persetan ma aturan, persetan ma tanggung jawab, persetan ma prestasi.
Jadi OBIS itu diawasin lebih ketat. Kalo baju keluar, kata senior "Masak anak OSIS bajunya gitu?"
BODO AMAT.

Gue pengen bebas! FREE!! TAIIII SMUAAA!!!
Jujur aja, gue iri ma temen-temen gue yang ga usah khawatir dicari ma ktua OBIS. Anjink!!

The Dead Flower

"Aku, tlah berjanji akan slalu menjagamu..
tapi, kau slalu pergi
bersama kekasih barumu..

Menikmati pedihnya cinta..
Pria kesepiaan..
Menikmati dinginnya hati..
Pria kesepiaan.."

Ada yang tau tu lagu?
Pria Kesepian.

By Sheila On 7. Tu bermakna banget bwt gue.Kembali tersenyum atas hal yang ga bisa gue alami selama 4 bulan.Kembali kepada kesendirian,sahabat-sahabat gue mengingatkan gue, akan makna hidup yang harus tetep gue ukir, dan gue ga boleh berhenti cuma karena cewe.Dia aja udah ngelupain gue, ngapain juga gw inget dia?Gue mang lemah.Dan sekarang, blog gue ingin menyampaikan suasana hati gue atas sakit hati yang terjadi.

Yaph.Cukup banyak alasan yang ada buat mutusin gue.N dari jawaban-jawaban dia,seberapapun kata 'aku masih sayang' atau 'aku masih ada rasa cinta ke kamu',menurut gue, rasa itu udah gak ada lagi. Cuma itu. Dia cuma gamau nyakitin gue aja atau 'dicap' jelek.

Well.Gue inget pas hari-hari awal dia mutusin gue, ada kata "liat aja nanti, bisa aja kamu menang".. Maksudnya, bisa aja dia kembali ke pelukan gue asal gue 'menang' dari orang ke-3 itu..BUT. Gua bukan pilihan. Inget lagu Bang Iwan Fals, ga ada pilihan dalam rasa cinta. Kalo ada pilihan gitu, cinta dia kebagi dong?Emangnya ujian kenaikan kelas, pake pilihan ABCD..

Ok.Gue mencoba mengerti, apa arti dari Samting Ngehe Named Cinta (disingkat:SANGENACI), dan gue coba tanya ke beberapa orang lewat sms. Walau ga semuanya ngebales seh..Ga cuma SANGENACI, gue juga nanya, apa arti dari sahabat menurut pandangan mereka. 1 lagi, mana yang lebih penting, sahabat, atau SANGENACI?Orang-orang yang gue tanya adalah temen dan sahabat-sahabat gue.Jadi gue kirim ptanyaan,
1.Arti cinta menurut u?
2.Arti sahabat menurut u?
3.Mana yang lebih penting???
Mereka punya pendapat berbeda-beda en sungguh bervariasi.Berikut sms-sms mereka!

X3ñ0 (Seno:mantan anak 3D)
Cinta=perasaan yg bisa bikin sakit atau senang
Teman=org2 dsklling 'us' yg ngertiin kita.

Gradduttzzz (Grady:sohib gw yg ndud)
*Cinta=sswtu yg indah, ttp akn mmbuat skit pd akhrny
*shabat=sswtu yg sqt pntinq dan plnq brhrga bq gw..
yg plq pnting=shabat.. Mrk yg sllu ad bwt gw dsaat ska n dka..Saat ska mrk mnemani gw brbagi kbhgiaan..Saat dka mrk mnghbur gw n kc nsehat..

Bloon (Bayu:Sohibnya sohib gue!)
Cnta it rs pgorbnan, rela bhkn nyawapun dbrikn dmi org yg dcntai, mmprthankn ssorg yg dcntai agr ga claka..(prisciL.)
shbt:ad kpn aj, n mw trma +/- sohib'y(u)

Pe (Pricil:Cewenya Bloon)CINTA=Sswatu yg qta dpt,ga cm dr pcr,tp dr smw org,dn brsfat universal.SAHABAT=ss'org yg slalu ad bwd qt,dy ga pna ngcwain,sllu mnsuport qt.n yg pling ptg 2"y.

Yenboy (Yenni:Udah kayak cece gue neh)
1.cinta tue ky rsa lemon,,da mns,,da asem,,da paitna jg,,jd mnrt g cinta tue kdng nyenengin kdng nykitin..
2.sahabat,,mnrt g shbt tue orng yg lbh ngrtiin qta drpd pcr,,dy sll da bwt qta saat sdh mwpn ssh,,yg bs nrma qta pa adny tnpa mndng baik to bruk qta..
3.yg palnk pntng bwt g adlh SAHABAT..

Marshya (Marsha: Ni cece angkat gue)
CINTA: SuatU pRasaan yg bnR2 ga bs diun9kpn dg kt2, tp bs diuNgkpkn dg peRbuatan.. Cinta ito mo mEnggandEng n n9ran9kuL., ga pndg buLu ato kuLit.. Cinta ito abadi.. Cinta ad di dLm hati yg pLg daLam..
SAHABAT: SeseoRg yg sEtia mNemani, baiQ sk ato dUka.. SeseoRg yg BERARTI di dLm hati.. SeseoRg yg akn sLL ad di sisi.. Mmg ad yg nm'ny mNtan pcR, tp ga akN ad yg nm'ny mNtn sHbt..
MnRt gw, dua2ny pntg, kLo ga ad ciNta, ga akN tRbntk sUatu pErsHbtn.. KLo ga ad sHbt, ga aKn tRbntK sUatU pRasaan ciNta, di mn bs sLg mEn9uatKn..
I 'LOVE' YOU, MY 'BEST FRIEND', BILLY..

Nan (Wulan:Yang ini ade angkat gue)
1.Arti 'CINTA':hmm...maybe,prasaan ssorg k org laenny yg dy sk yg daleeemm bgd...Tp mnrt dd rs SAYANG ma CINTA lbi dalem rs sayang..Coz bysny cinta it gombaL!
2.Arti 'SAHABAT':maybe again..,lbi dr skedar tmen..,shbt it care,ga egois,ssh bwat dtmuin,dllny yg jlaz dy lbi dr tmn..
3.Mn yg plg brarti?Alsanny?jLas shbt dunk..,ga tw knp..Kyqny kl shbt bs mpe lamaaa bgd...sdgkn kl pcr bs easy come easy go..

Siephint (Siefin: Mantan Best Friend gue)
CinTa mnurut g ssuatu yg ga bs d ungkapin tp cm bs dRasain..cnT it bs mmbuat hdup g lbh smangat n brarti..
ShabaT it org yg bs d ajak sedih,sneng,dll,bs ngjaga rhasia g (it bru namany shbat bnran) n ga bs dLupain smpe kpnpun..
Pntingan shbat krn cnTa it msh bs dCari yg lbh baik lg,,qlo shabat blm tntu qta nmuin yg lbh bgus..N mnurut g khilangan shbat it lbh sakit drpd kHlangan cnTa,,wlaupun khlangan cnT jg mnyakitkan..

Qriztha (Kristasia: Ini juga sohib gue)
Cinta ntu prsaan spesial bwt org yg spesial..
Shbt ntu org tmpt qta crita,tnpa prlu jaim"an..
22ny brarti,.sLny klo ga da cnta qta ga bkL pny shbt..

Anya (Rezka: Partner se-meja di 3D)
CinTa iTu haL y9 bz lu sHare ma or92 d sktr lu.SwaTu y9 nynen9in.Kd9 nykitin.
SaHaBat iTu or9 y9 bz d anDeLin,bz nRim0 gwe pa da na.Or9 y9 bz gwe b9i cnTa gwe.
Y9 plin9 pnt9 iTu cinTa coZ bz n9bgi cnTa k shaBat2 n or9 dsktR gwe.

Ncentz n Amel (Vincent: Sohib gue banget, 1 dari babi yang dulu gue ceritain (baca:Tiga Babi Bersaudara Dan Serigala Kecil) & Jessica Amelinda (Cewenya Ncent, temen gue juga)
Cinta...Perasaan yg kadang bkin seneng, kadang bkin sakit...
kadang bkin ceria, kadang bikin murung...
kadang bikin smuany indah, kadang bikin smuany suram...
Cinta ga bisa dtunjukkin... Cma bsa diekspresiin...
Cinta ga sama kyk nafsu...Tp justru untuk menjaga dy, orang yg qta sayangi....

Sahabat..Ikatan antar teman yg saling dekat dan kuat.. Ga ada yg bisa misahin..Cinta bisa brakhir, tp persahatan ga bisa walau ada badai sebesar apapun...

Cinta dan Sahabat SAMA PENTINGNY...Ga ada yg lebih penting atau kurang penting...Karna qta ga bisa hidup tanpa CINTA dan SAHABAT...

Sasa (Sari: Partner gue di 3D juga)
Menurud g cinTA tuh: swatu prasaan yg tUlus menyayangi SAm1,n g gk ad raSA ingN menYakiti th or9 yg aD g in9in sLaLU brsmany.
Shbt: or9 trpENting ddunia.coz krn mrEKa yg sLAlu n9isi khdpan g dsaat sdh maUpun snang..n mreka sLalu bwT hr" g hEPi..
Jd g pLh sHBt yg trpEnting!Karna sHBt aKn menEMani g kpn pUN jg,sdgkan ciNta hny sesaat aJ!

Ehm. Walau banyak juga sohib-sohib gue yang ga bales, tapi tetep ada yang terbaik diantara semua komentar.
Diantara semuanya, komentar terbaik tentang cinta buat gue adalah punya NCENT&AMEL.
En komentar terbaik tentang sahabat, buat gue adalah komentar dari MARSHYA (mantan pacar ada. Tapi ga ada mantan sahabat)

Yakk.. Selamat buat pemenangnya, hadiah bisa diambil di rumah gue di Bali berupa 1 unit Mercedes Benz en uang 1 Milyar tunai(gila, banyak banget. Gue aja kagak punya).Hadiah dapat diambil sebelum 1 Januari 1998.

Menurut gue ndiri?
*Cinta itu ibarat bunga.Pas mekar, indah bgt kliatanny. Tp itu ga abadi. Kl ud tiba saatny, bunga it bkl layu n busuk.Cinta sjati adlh bunga yg abadi. Tuhan udh siapin msg2 jodohny d dunia.
*Sahabat itu ga bs diibaratin pk ap2. Shbt ya shbt. Ad d saat sng, ad d saat sdh, shbt jg ngsh rsa syg n cinta lebih dr seorg pcr. Sahabat adlh keluarga ke 2. Shbt langka n sulit d dpt.
*Yg plg pnting?Sahabat. Mrk bikin hr g crah stlh 'ujan' dbikin mantan g..^

Well. Bervariasi memang.Tapi berdasarkan penelitian, SANGENACI emang bukan sesuatu yang selamanya indah.

Ehm. Untuk mengungkapkan perasaan gue juga, gue punya kisah nyata tentang cinta dari seseorang.

Anak muda, cowo, SMA. Hidupnya berubah setelah dia pindah rumah. Ke pulau laen di seberang lautan.Sohib-sohibnya udah jauh. Cewe yang dia cintai juga jauh. Cinta itu bertepuk sebelah tangan, jadi si cowo harus menderita lebih parah karena semakin jauh dari harapan. Walau sempet jatuh bangun, dia bertahan di tengah kesendirian itu.

Pas dia udah mulai adaptasi dari kesendirian itu dengan support sohib-sohibnya dari jarak jauh, salah seorang temen lama tau-tau sms dia. Cewe. Si anak SMA itu awalnya ga seneng ma tu cewe. Why? Karena, dulu mereka sahabat. Tapi si cewe itu ngilang setelah si cowo itu pindah. Sampai suatu saat, si anak muda itu nyadar, ga ada gunanya mereka bermusuhan. Dia ngajak damai si cewe. Awalnya si cewe ga mau. Ga lama, mereka baean en tumbuh bibit cinta dari si cewe. Si cewe pun nyampein rasa sayangnya, en si cowo ngerespon. Si cewe sempet nyampein kalo dia gamau nunggu terlalu lama. En emang ga terlalu lama,pas suatu kali si cowo liburan ke kota asal, mereka jadian. Si cowo, mati-matian ngelupain orang yang dia cintai sebelumnya demi si cewe ini.

Mereka saling mencintai, en ga peduli kalo mereka akan menempuh masa sulit karena pacaran jarak jauh yang harus dia tempuh. Mereka saling percaya. Saling mencintai. Gandengan tangan mereka kelihatan erat banget, seakan ga akan bisa lepas oleh apapun. Kenangan-kenangan indahpun diukir. Si cowo nyempetin waktu buat liburan balik ke kota asalnya, juga buat ketemu si cewe. Saat-saat ketemu, pelukan, belaian, rangkulan, sampe nge-date, semuanya jadi momen yang ga akan pernah tergantikan. Soalnya mereka jarang ketemu.

Sampe beberapa bulan kemudian, mereka ada di 2 pulau berbeda. Dan bencana terjadi.Si cowo ngelakuin suatu kesalahan, yaitu si cowo pengen ngerubah si cewe en jadi seperti yang dia mau. Dia pengen cewenya jadi lebih baik. Tapi si cewe ga pernah bisa. Mereka pun berantem.
Sampe suatu saat, si cewe tahu-tahu minta putus. Si cowo shock en ga tau musti ngapain. Jarak yang misahin bener-bener jadi piso tajem yang nyiksa jiwa dia.Cewenya bilang ortunya ga setuju kalo anaknya pacaran jarak jauh, nilai dia yang turun gara-gara pacaran, en cowo laen. Ngerasa diduain, si cowo ga terima. Si cewe malah bilang, dia udah sayang ma tuh cowo dari sebelum mereka pacaran, tapi rasa itu hilang UNTUK SEMENTARA karena harapan si cewe yang ga kesampean. Dan rasa itu ada lagi setelah harapan itu muncul lagi.

Si cewe ngebagi cintanya. Si cowo harusnya punya hak, supaya si cewe ngelupain harapan lamanya. Ga cuma itu, si cewe bilang, rasa sayang orang itu tulus banget ke dia. Si cowo pun ngerasa ada yang salah. Cinta dia lebih tulus, tapi kalah sama orang yang ga penting itu. Si cowo juga mikir, ngapain dulu dia mati-matian ngelupain orang yang dicintai sebelum si cewe ini?

Farewell..Merekapun putus.
Namun begonya cinta, si cowo masih aja sayang ma tu cewe. Dia juga udah tahu kalo selain alasan tentang cowo laen itu, si cewe juga ga mampu pacaran jarak jauh en katanya, dia butuh orang yang bener-bener ADA sebagai tempat dia bermanja-manja, dll. Alasan yang sungguh bikin panas hati. Si cowo inget dulu si cewe dengan PDnya berani buat pacaran jarak jauh.
Gobloknya lagi si cowo, masih aja dia sayang ma tu cewe.Sampe hari ini.

nahh..Yang gue pengen ambil dari cerita ini,cinta itu bakal layu pada saatnya. Kalo udah layu, ya busuk. Semua yang indah ga akan keliatan lagi.
Kalo gue jadi si cowo, HARUSNYA gue lupain aja tuh cewe! Cape-cape ngelupain orang yang dulu kita sayang, eh dia malah ninggalin kita dengan alasan ada orang lain yang disayangin.Belom lagi pada awalnya si cewe yang udah optimis ambil keputusan buat pacaran jarak jauh duluan. Tapi pada akhirnya, dia malah dengan loyo bilang ga mampu pacaran jarak jauh.

Yang gue ambil juga,jangan pacaran jarak jauh.En berhati-hari dalam mengucap kata.Jangan bikin janji yang belum tentu bisa ditepati.
En juga pelajaran dari si "cowo laen" itu,jangan pernah lu sayang ma orang yang udah udah dipunyain.Persetan ma kata si "cowo laen" itu tentang "rasa sayang/cinta yang tulus" atau "cinta tidak harus memiliki".OK?Mencintai orang yang udah dimiliki adalah SALAH. Itu cinta terlarang.
Ahhh,,dunia emang penuh sama dusta..

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Hidup berjalan en gue musti bertahan.
Thx buat bulldog-80 yang udah ngasih support lewat comment.
Hidup gue harus terus berjalan.
Gue akuin gue masih sayang.
Tapi.
Semuanya udah ga mungkin kembali.

Gue coba jalanin idup ini dengan ceria.
Gue kebut-kebutan lagi. Bukan buat ditabrak, tapi buat ngancurin janji gue ke dia dulu kalo gue ga akan ngebut lagi. Gue beli buku Raditya Dika yang baru. Babi Ngesot:Datang Tak Diundang, Pulang Tak Berkutang. Walau menurut gue kurang "gress", tetep ada ketawa-ketawa yang keluar. Komiknya juga keren en kocak. Ampe nyokap gue aja ketawa-ketawa ndiri bacanya. Sempet mikir kalo gue telah menemukan darimana kegilaan gue, yang ternyata merupakan penyakit keturunan. Tapi gue yakin nyokap 100% waras en gue aja yang gila.

Gue juga beli buku "Tolong Radith Membuat Saya Bego!" yang ditulis sama si Dick-A, yang isinya pernyataan kalo 'gila'nya si Radith bisa nular. Ternyata emang bener. Banyak foto yang menyatakan kalo dari buku si Dick-a, orang bisa ketularan sarap. Dari foto orang boker sambil baca bukunya Radith, makan buku si Radith, sampe epilepsi gara-gara baca bukunya.

Gue juga melakukan aktifitas yang sangat gue sukai.
Nonton pelm bioskop.
Gue hobi banget nonton.
Kemaren gue nonton Iron-Man.

Dimana ada orang yang namanya Tony Stark yang merupakan seorang pengusaha pembuat senjata-senjata canggih, yang belajar tentang kemanusiaan waktu dia ditawan di perang. Dari penderitaan entuh, dia tahu akibat dari apa yang dia lakuin, kalo senjata-senjata itu bahkan ngebunuh temen, en sodara-sodara dia. Enough of too many shit, dia berhenti en bikin armor buat membela kebenaran.

Well. Keren banget gak sih. Gue sih cuma bisa berandai-andai kalo gue punya baju kayak gitu. Gue terbang sesuka hati en membela kebenaran. Yang gue mau sih sebetulnya cuma biar bisa pulang ke Tangerang sesuka hati. Hwaha.

Gue emang hobi banget nonton. Dari horror (kecuali horor Indonesia yang cuma bisa bikin gue nanya: Ngapain itu orang malah diem aja di kamar sepi ga ada orang? Ngapain dia jalan-jalan di tempat sepi?
Ngapain dia ga minta temenin temenya malah jalan sendiri padahal ketakutan setengah mampus?), fantasi, superhero, komedi, drama sampe film kayak scary-movie.

Gue kurang suka ma film-film yang isinya love-love-love atau horor-indo. Horor indo, kayak gak punya judul laen, judul-judul yang ada bikin gue garuk-garuk lutut (ngapain coba).. Look at "Tali Pocong Perawan".
OMG.
Ini bahkan keluar ga lama setelah film "Susahnya Jadi Perawan". Gue mang belom nonton 2-2nya.. Tapi coba deh, kita gabungin cerita keduanya. Kalo boleh nih, gue bikin film "Susahnya Jadi Pocong Perawan". Ceritanya seseorang yang selalu menjaga keperawanannya dari laki-laki yang mau menggerayanginya, sampai akhirnya dia mati dan jadi pocong. Dia mencoba membalas dendam kepada cowo-cowo yang pernah mencoba merebut keperawananya itu. Ceritanya agak biadab sih. Tapi keren lah..

Film horor yang laen lagi misalnya "Beranak Dalam Kubur". Kenapa? Kenapa harus beranak dalam kubur? Alangkah kasihan. Harusnya yang wajar kan "Beranak Dalam Rumah Sakit Umum" atau "Beranak Dalam Rumah Mbah Dukun". Meurut gue, judul ini emang dimaksud-in untuk lebih extrim. Tapi tetep 'tanggung'. Kalo gue, bakal bikin "Beranak Dalam Jurang" atau "Berbuat Mesum Dalam Kubur".

Judul "Kereta Hantu Manggarai" menurut gue cukup bagus lah. Lumayan. Tapi bagus juga kalo dibikin jurusan dan jam keberangkatannya. Misalkan "Kereta Hantu Manggarai-Medan Berangkat Pukul 18.00 WIB". Tapi gue ga yakin tu judul bakal diterima. Yang ada kepanjangan.

Well. Tetep menghibur. En pemikiran gue tentang film malah kadang bikin gue ketawa ndiri.

Yahh.. Walau film-film ini menghibur, gue butuh pencerahan lagi dari Tuhan, supaya gue bisa ngejalanin idup selanjutnya setelah ancur begini. Start from nol. Cewe udah pegi. Sahabat jauh semua. Sekarang, coba jalanin idup ke depan.. Days next..